Honestly, I don't mind it. I'm getting a lot done when spending time alone. I only bring it up because tonight I have a fundraiser to go to for this film I'm working on and I'm (supposedly) going to meet cast and crew and probably friends of cast and crew and this prospect is giving me anxiety. I'm going to be working with these people so I want to make a good impression, but if I force myself to be "friendly person" just now, I'll be false and exhaust myself. If I just park myself at a table with a beverage, I'll be the weird one. I know - this is very much a first world problem, but this is very much how social anxiety goes. I just have to remember that I don't have to stay any longer than I want to, I don't have to drink alcohol at all (and likely won't since I'm driving quite a way), and if I walk away from the evening branded "the weird one..." Well, there are worse things that could happen.
I wish I had done laundry today so I had a better t-shirt to wear.